「 ほらね、ありふれた様な日々が あたりまえのように側にいた君が ずっといれると思ってたから 気にもしてなかった、ただそれだけなんだ Look here, at these dull days When I took it for granted that you were by my side Because I thought it’d always be like that I didn’t even care; things were just like that 」 Courtesy of Gendou.com シ Y'know how people [in general] say that Brazil isn't safe and all that.. Well yeah, I guess. But hey, that's the situation everywhere nowadays. So it's no biggie but.. TWO of my contacts, people I know, have died in the past TWO weeks. One last week, another just three days ago. And it's not like here is any more dangerous than the next city, probably a lil bit more dangerous than the United States, but hey. If God wants to keep me alive, than I'll stay alive. So it's not a problem to me, [doesn't mean I'm telling anyone back home tho'] [And Ame, don't tell. My mum will freak, lol] [Okay okay, I'll tell when I get home okay?] it's just.. Once I got over the whole 'OMW, SOMEONE I KNOW DIED', it's like.. Sigh. I won't see that person ever again, even if I wasn't ever close to them. It fills me with even greater sadness, to know that they [both] were on the verge of accepting Jesus, but didn't. It's like, being in one of those tragic movies, with the villain who finally repented but is hanging off the edge of a cliff, and the hero is trying to pull him back, and he loses his grip and falls to his death. Something like that. Sigh. Which is why I put up this particular Japanese music piece. It's from テガミバチ [Tegami Bachi] or Letter Bee, and it's an anime/manga about postmen - with a twist. Sure, the anime's not so much about action, [hence, it's not mainsteam] the art's pretty good, yeah, but the main thing that captivated me, was that it was about people. Like, what happens, which resulted in a letter, the emotions behind a certain letter, whether written with true or false intentions, and so on. It's about the heart. As a result, it often plays on my heartstrings, so yes, it's worth watching. But back to my friends' deaths. It's really hard on my mate, y'know? She's the mum of one of them, and she has to pick up the pieces. The debts, the this, the that, not to mention, the grief. Poor lady, bless her soul. So I guess, what I'm trying to say is - Life is fleeting. Don't waste a single day, on something you'd regret it on. You can quote me on that. So yeah, I couldn't post for the past two Mondays, because my hand got bitten by a dog. Now, now. No pictures. The wound still looks nasty. [Like a zombie bite]
What my sister sent to my mum, who went ballistic, of course. To describe the wound in all of its actuality, the dog punctured my thumb muscle with its canine teeth, and the other teeth managed to grip onto the edge of my right hand. So. When I shook the dog off, its teeth hooked onto my flesh, and caused an internal tear. The dog is a Husky Siberian. Badass. It's not as bad as it sounds, tho'. シ Thing is, I was playing with the dog, and it didn't know that it was being rough. I had three shots after that, and yes, to answer the question in your head, the dog is fine. Lol It's been three weeks since, but my hand still hurts from time to time. Well, gotta roll with the punches, right? Anyway, I've been thinking about the future, and it just seems so hard to reach that dream, [Whatever dream you have in mind] especially since the world is dying. [Look around you, it's just not what it used to be] Will I have enough time? What if I can't make it? What if, what if, what if. And it just keeps me awake at night. [Doesn't help when the people around you] [Are dropping like flies left and right] I'm looking at some people I look up to, and it's like How? How do I attain that level?
It's quite depressing, isn't it? But I was reading James 4:15 [NLT] today, 「 What you ought to say is, "If the Lord wants us to, we will live and do this or that."」 So if I put my trust in God, everyday will turn out fine, not because I am now absconded or suddenly free, of problems. No. However, I now have confidence that, there is someone greater, greater than everything I could possibly imagine, and He is watching over me. That's right, with a capital H. Cause He's cool like that. So yeah, new phrase #Godwilling See y'all next Monday. シ
Signing off @ 10:55 AM
The Girl
About me
Rachel
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