Tuesday, May 11, 2010
im angry.
and i dont like it.
i just dont feel it's fair....
and i wanna scream with frustration.
but.. im not supposed to.
so i get MADDER because i cant let go of my anger.
ridiculous... >__<
me, that is.
And well,
im worried about next semester.
and my current grades.
i hate this.
i miss Cale.
..when he's not in Cale land.
i wish he didnt go there.
i wish he just stayed put in reality. ):
Sometimes, i miss them.
i wish things didnt turn out the way it did.
well, not really, just.. well that they can SEE.
i wish there was an alternative route, so they could be saved.
i wish they were less stubborn.
But....
wishing doesnt get you anywhere.
and when i look at my life right now.
Hey, actually im really blessed. :)the best thing / person / event / ANYTHING in my life right now is
God.
i have a good mother, my siblings dont give me trouble, my dog is adorable.
my teachers dont hate me, i like school [the actual building and subject, not people]
my assignments are done, i still have JCG, i have VFC, i have my lovely Net group, i have BEC, i have Power teens, i have my lovely tuition students, i have my best friend the Bible, my bed is comfy, i have a nice house, my family isnt in financial trouble, my neighbourhood is peaceful, Singapore isnt undergoing disasters like other countries, i still have one of the two blessings God sent me when i was in need of friends: Cale, i have great cousins, i have awesome godparents and godbrother, my grandmother is.. cute, my family is all-in-all pretty good shape right now, i love mornings, i love everyday because everyday is a miracle and gift God gave to us, i love clouds, i love rain, i love many other things
and did i mention i love God? :)
and so.. when i look at my post and count my blessings.
Hey.. im really blessed. :)
so what if i dont have best friends?
or a lover i can count on?
or team mates i can REALLY work with?
i still have friends.
i still have a hawt crush. [xD]
i still have reasonable team mates.
but most importantly,
i still have
God!
look to
Abraham, Moses and Paul!
yes!
I'll stand by you, I'll stand by you.
Won't let nobody hurt you.
I'll stand by you.
Take me in into your darkest hour.
And I'll never desert you.
I'll stand by you.i know you will, God.
that's why you're just so awesome like that. :)
